Wings of Heart

FATE.
What comes into your mind when you hear this word? The horoscope readings? One in a million chances but somehow you get it? Meeting someone in the road that will change your lives forever?

I've always believed in things like this. I don't know. Maybe because, somehow, it makes you more confident about the future. Or maybe because I'm just curious. But I've always been fascinated on how I'll know my fate.

I've trued various methods. Numerology, Astrology, Tarot Cards, I-Ching, Yes or No Oracles, Runes, I've done them. Google can be very useful (right.). But, somehow, it made me more anxious. I'm even terrified of the thought that I'll grow older than fourteen.

For example, the Yes or No Oracles. Now that was entertaining. You just ask questions answerable by yes or no (Obviously). Well, I ask random things. But these are the things that intrigued me:

Will my future husband be rich? : Yes (Thank God!)
Is he handsome? : No (What the!)
Is he ugly? : No (At least)
Will I love him? : No (Shoot!)
Will he love me? : Yes (Now that's better!)
Will he commit adultery? : Yes (Oh come on!)
Will I love someone else aside from my husband? : Yes (Major Shoot!)
Will I finish college? No (I am so dead)
Will I marry before I graduate college? : Yes (My mom is going to kill me!)
Will I get pregnant before I graduate college? : No (Then why am I even marrying?)
Will I be happy? : No (Just great.)

Those are some random things I asked. As you have noticed, I'm pretty curious about my future married life. I guess its important for a teen girl like me to know those things. Its just, I don't know, like the climax of a woman's life. Or maybe its the end. I don't know. But it seemed fairly important. I don't think I can envision myself as a wife, let alone a mother. It creeps me out.

Ever heard of the meaning of your moles? Well, I found a book about it at a bookstore. Somehow, its what worried me the most.

My mole on my left forehead means that I solve problems easily (Is that why I'm good at Math?). Also, it means that I'll suffer in the future and that divorce is very likely to happen to me (No kidding?). Some of my moles also means that I'm friendly and sociable (I have 2 friends, so that makes me friendly?). And it made me wonder.

So that's what awaits me? Suffering? Heartbreak? What a good thing to aspire after. I mean, if its just that, then what worthwhile awaits me?

Then, on second thought, the whole thing is nonsense. How could your mole determine your future? How could a site in the internet be possibly sure that I will not be happy? I mean, I make my own future. I'm the one doing it. Not some piece of crap, telling you they know everything.

I am the master of my own fate. I am the one who will determine what will happen. Believing in those things were foolish. I shouldn't have wasted my time on such things. They were nonsense. I know that when someone who believes in them might react violently when they read this, but I have to say this. People shouldn't be fooled with those things. I was once, and it might be harmful for others. They might depend on this things.

So, to everyone who will read this, You make your own future. So, start doing something to make your future bright! Never think that this things are out of your hands. They are. So, have faith in yourself!

Believe in yourself! If not, who else will?